Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Hello World

Traffic crawls 
Cell Phone Calls 
Talk radio screams at me through my tinted window 
I see a little girl, rust red minivan 
She's got chocolate on her face 
Got little hands, and she waves at me, yeah she smiles at me. 

Well Hello World 
How you been? 
Good to see you my old friend 
Sometimes I feel, Cold as steel 
Broken like I'm never gonna heal 
I see a light, a little hope in a little girl, Well HELLO WORLD 

Everyday I drive by a little white church, 
its got these little white crosses like angels in the yard 
Maybe I should stop on in, say a prayer 
Maybe talk to God like he is there 
Oh I know he's there, Yeah I know he's there 

Well Hello World 
How you been? 
Good to see you my old friend, 
Sometimes I feel as Cold as steel 
And broken like I'm never gonna heal 
I see a light, a little grace, little faith unfurl. 
Well Hello World 

Sometimes I forget what living's for, And i hear my life through my front door, 
and I'll be there, 
oh I'm home again 
I See my wife, little boy, little girl, Hello World 

Hello World 
All the empty disappears 
I remember why I'm here 
Just surrender and believe 
I fall down on my knees 
Oh Hello World, Hello World, Hello World



by: Lady Antebellum


A song I have on repeat...I love it. 

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Fabulous Fall

Welcome cooler weather! Thank you for some relief! I cherish your refreshing effects, but I do wish you would remain all day and not disappear after 1pm. I truly love waking in the morning and needing to put a sweater on to walk the dogs in the morning. I have even managed to wear some scarfs with outfits for a few days. But I hate dressing in fall clothes only to become overheated in the afternoon because it becomes summer like weather again...Fall please come - you are desperately desired now. I want to wear my favorite things without having to shed layers! Stay cool and remain cool!!

Things I love in fall:
scarfs, boots, tights/leggings, sweaters, cardigans, jeans, apple cider, candles, fall colors, falling leaves, open windows, coffee, pumpkin spice creamer, pumpkins, darker nail polish, thanksgiving; biking, walking, roller-blading without dying of heat stroke, fire pits, camping, walking in the city. . . I could go on for sure, but you get the idea.

Back in the Groove:
Homework again - Class - Subbing -Tutoring - Babysitting our godson Chase - it's on!

Friday, September 3, 2010

College: The Never ending Story

College again. 4 classes. 2 in the fall, 2 in the spring. Substitute teaching all wrapped in, and tutoring.. I am already exhausted and I didn't even start subbing yet!

At least I have a loving and wonderful hubby and 2 fuzzy soft snuggly puppies to come home to. Thank you Lord for the things we overlook every day because they are always there.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Cherish

no idea why this popped into my head..but it did, randomly, at the weirdest possible moment - any who..

remember back - those days as a child...that is longer for some than others...when we cherished the simple things in life?

candy necklaces, ring pops, water balloons, over-sized dresses for dress up clothes made to size with clothespins, grown up shoes that click on hardwood, play doh, costume jewelry, stuffed animals, legos, coloring, treasure rocks, stickers, board games, being outside pretending ur somewhere completely different in the world n ur able to be there in ur imagination...i think that's what i loved the most about being a kid...being able to imagine a place i knew existed or didnt exist n could live and play in that moment in that world without care of who was watching or whether i sounded silly..

today - those simple things in life are almost obsolete...how often do u see children 'pretending'? instead of hearing 'go outside and play" life revolves around the television and the shows on it, or the internet and computer games, video games...kids rely on these things for amusement and they no longer can amuse themselves and are always bored if those activities are unavailable to them. . i'm talking the majority...there are still those who don't really want or need those things...but most do. and the sad thing is no one is changing the habits forming because some parents are too lazy to be amusing their children..no one wants to be bothered anymore and those electronic forms of entertainment are the perfect babysitter..they can do what they want and the kid is occupied. i asked the children when i was subbing in june to write a journal entry about their weekend and what they did with their family/parents. not one child did a single thing with their family. the answers revolved around the tv and the computer. how sad is that?

Thursday, June 24, 2010

so many....

ok - for those of you who had a baby - they are precious and adorable and i love them so please do not be insulted by my ramblings...

however - i feel like i have been bombarded with baby pics on facebook! everyone seems to be pregnant or having a baby and it seems to have happened all of a sudden!

now - im truly and deeply happy for so many couples..the ones who went about it the way God wants it to, but some didn't and for those people the miracle of the baby is wonderful but i'm not so thrilled for them for some reason...its not as beautiful when it's not the way God wants it...the baby is beautiful and a miracle and creation of God...but the way some went about it was wrong and sinful n in that i am not as happy and joyful in that birth...

am i judgmental? am i cruel? am i mean spirited and uncaring?

no, i think not...there is a reason God tells one man and one woman to marry and to be fruitful and multiply - thats how it's supposed to be....a family. a foundation. a balance. and it's just plain...awkward when the other half isn't in the picture (by choice) and can create a lot of adversity that wouldn't exist if said picture was filled in completely. now am i saying God can't work in that situation? no, and it happened so therefore it was also part of God's will for those people...but it just saddens me and my heart breaks when it happens the the way God did not intend for it to.

The end.

Monday, May 31, 2010

Desperate but Not Despairing Yet

Welcome back for those who actually read...possibly no one...however I shall write anyway - I have that itch again I guess to type something.

Currently - subbing has been better than expected and I am actually enjoying myself in spite of those children you just think need to have better parents which is what would cure their behavior(s). They learn the way to be because of their parents and what they allow so I can't blame them can I? Now some things and inexcusable to which I have repeatedly corrected on some occasions, but really - a substitute? What kind of change can I invoke since I am only there for a few hours? So, at one time I used to push all my energy into "changing" that child I knew others had given up hope on, but I can't do that anymore. It's too exhausting and I can only do so much. I am taking each day as a blessing with or without a behaving class, it's all a learning experience.

Future - desperate for a summer job...hopeful for subbing in the coming school year since nothing permanent will probably happen. As of June 21st I will need a summer job and have come up empty handed on all my attempts to be employed. I am getting slightly desperate, but I am not going to let myself despair...yet. I have put a few calls to some people and alerted them to my availability; hoping to find a babysitting gig of some kind...since I have a feeling that's going to be my only option...

For we are hopeful of things not seen....