Welcome back for those who actually read...possibly no one...however I shall write anyway - I have that itch again I guess to type something.
Currently - subbing has been better than expected and I am actually enjoying myself in spite of those children you just think need to have better parents which is what would cure their behavior(s). They learn the way to be because of their parents and what they allow so I can't blame them can I? Now some things and inexcusable to which I have repeatedly corrected on some occasions, but really - a substitute? What kind of change can I invoke since I am only there for a few hours? So, at one time I used to push all my energy into "changing" that child I knew others had given up hope on, but I can't do that anymore. It's too exhausting and I can only do so much. I am taking each day as a blessing with or without a behaving class, it's all a learning experience.
Future - desperate for a summer job...hopeful for subbing in the coming school year since nothing permanent will probably happen. As of June 21st I will need a summer job and have come up empty handed on all my attempts to be employed. I am getting slightly desperate, but I am not going to let myself despair...yet. I have put a few calls to some people and alerted them to my availability; hoping to find a babysitting gig of some kind...since I have a feeling that's going to be my only option...
For we are hopeful of things not seen....
